Boooooh ! hehe. hellohello . gue maseh ngaaak boleh tiduur lagik nihh . ehhhmang nya knapa dehhh ? waduhhhwaduuh ! hehehe. step minah indon mane lak . skali ku sepak berjoget sioool . hmm .. got something to tell you. ii cant deny tht ii still miss you . yepyep. haiz. just cant get rid of tht feeling . too much memories, yknow ? you ask me if i've feelings of love for you . truthfully , yes. ii do love you . like ii said. you are half of my life. Now, half of it is gone. and i'm left with the other one. once the other one left . there'll be NONE. faham ? tk faham tkpe. but do you still love me ? answer truthfully. from my point , ii know you dont. the last time ii asked you when ii was hospitalised , " arid maseh syg kn yatz tak ? "
you said ." tak . "
ii replied , " SUMPAH ? "
you said , " sumpah , arid dah ludah tk kan jilat alek . "
cant imagine how my feelings was. it was horrible ii tell you. ii almost cant breathe . cant breathe a single air inside of me ! tears dropped. ii ask myself , " whre did ii go wrong ? " ii began to love and trust you back. but this is wht ii get. stupid right ? ii know. you've promised to live with me. where is tht promise ? YOU SWEAR to me you wont leave me. ii didnt. but you did. what's this? ii hate it when you leave me. ii love you and this is what ii deserve ? loving other guy was like another story. he was different from you . not like wht ii expected. not like you . ii prefer you more than other guys. ii like the way you were. ii know you were perfect for me. but you left me. :( 5months. to many memories. what you thought was wrong . all wrong . you should have talk things out with me.. 1 week . ii waited for you . hoping tht you'll come back to me. but no . ii was wrong , TOTALLY WRONG. you left me. with no words. no sign of you . no msges from you . no calls from you . ii know its easy for you to forget me. but forgetting you is hard . and i'll nvr do. you said you wanted to open a new book . ii gave you a chance. day by day. my love for you began to increase bck again. arid tawu tak yatz btol2 happy when it comes to our 5 mths anni ? but you left me. 4 DAYS , ARID. 4 DAYS. it was horrible for me. cried each and everyday. wanting you to come bck to my life. brothers said move on. get scoldings and stuff. but somehow ii still wanted to wait for you. i've move on , decided to go on with life . was with other guy. then , you came back saying sorry . i smiled. but brothers were to protective. ii was stubborn . wanting to talk to you . ii could not describe how much ii miss you . ii kept asking . WHY WERE YOU LATE ? ASL BARU SKRG NK CKP SORRY AND BERBAIK BALEK ? 1 week . ii waited. but you disappeared. as i'm typing right now, tears kept dropping . idk why. mayb my love for you . memories. thts all i have. with the card you gave me. 2nd mth anni. ii still kept it. sorry to say , your presents for me was burnt away . my bro burnt it . ii had to forget you . but ii cant . i'm sorry :'(
i miss you arid, i miss you tawu ?! ii hate wht you've done. BENCI TAW ? :(
